Crap shit
So, what am I to talk about after so long? Work? My personal life? Well... let's start with work.Freak... I suddenly thought that I rather not talk about work. Cause it is nothing but crap shit. It has been downhill since the last time I spoke of a rosy prospect.
Then lets proceed to what's been happening around. Firstly I have been pretty sick these days. For the past one month plus I have been sick and injured mostly. Be it a persistent cold, diarrhea, sprains and headaches... I think that gives you a pretty good picture of what's been happening.
What had been buffling me is the way each individual treats others. There is this person who recently told me how she can't forget one incident that apparently made her so pissed about me and me as a person in the whole. Apparently my refusal to speak of my true feelings have given a negative reflection. In fact, why I never said anything was due to my patience, in which I had refused to blow up in her face.
But somehow, she took it badly, and ever since had a certain notion that really made me wonder how she ever conceived such an idea... I believe between two individuals there will always be lil conflicts here and there. But between one another, we always have to weigh the good times and bad times that each of us spend together. I really believe 99% of the time we spent together were happy and enjoyable. And I believe she thought so too. But somehow, towards me, her patience is as short as a thumbtack. And every good thing I've done is taken for granted and more or less something which I should have done.
The same thing happened in the company as well between some operator and me last night. I pride myself as someone who is fair and always try to give clear and good instructions in order to help everyone. Never have I once do anything purely on selfish nature in the course of work. I try to think of everyone before making decisions, be it simple or tough ones. And sad to say, people are not the same. They will at times try to take advantage of the care and benefits I showered them.
Disappointed to a certain extent, but I got my cool in my pocket. I won't change too much on how I treat people and handle issues, but I got good advices from my pals at work. Only be good to people who deserves it. And that I understand fully over the years when I deal with people, be it at army, work, study or daily life.
Back to the issue of the gal previously. Frankly I can't understand why I have to be treated like that. I suppose this isn't the first time people are treating me in this manner. In fact, I can't remember how many people will run to me crying when everything is doom and gloom. But when everything is rosy and sunny, where the hell are they? Basking in the sun of course... where I am left behind again. Disappointed in her actions but well, it's her choice so I have not much I can say about that. Everyone is unique in their own ways and react differently to different people and situation. Perhaps I am just unlucky in some sense. But I learn each time. I'm still learning.
Well I suppose that's all for now. I didn't really say everything but I think it is good enough for now. In fact i said less than 20% of the whole damn story. But heck man...
posted by luxy @ 8:42 AM
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