A Void of Sorrow or Happiness
I'm walking a thin wire again these days. I risking something which i prefer not to see for now. its not expected, just that it just came along...My exams are coming, so many subjects to study. for once, i have zero confidence in all my subjects. and i can't believe that i am still having such a good mood.... since like 2-3 weeks ago. maybe its the beer, maybe its just that i'm like the same person 6-7 years ago. i was almost never angry, never provocated, never sad, always happy, always cheerful. i'm probably pretty close to that again, and for that i am happy for myself. just maybe i have got past a certain barrier in my mind, or should i say a stumbling block. i must say the turning point have to be the week after the term break, where i controlled my emotions pretty well. ever since then its all the way up! from then, i haven't see the need to fill that little void that was always empty in me. and instead, i made a decision to fill it up again, with something else. its called HAPPINESS. sometimes, you thought, by doing 1, you can get happiness. or maybe not, do 2 and get that happiness. but 1 and 2, sometimes give u, not happiness, but sorrow and hurt. and its sticky... it sticks like superglue. but Happiness.... is just the opposite. its like fluid water... it can flow away in a second's time if you are not careful. it can also be like glacier, fixed and solid. i put in a glacier, filled up with my kind of happiness. a pure kind of happiness... like bestowed from heaven. but that doesn't mean the void will not take in anymore. happiness has no limit... i love to have more, and always to share them with anyone else out there. to purge the sorrow and hurt if your void is filled with it, and filled it up with love and happiness!
Now.... the thin wire i'm trending, is heading in a direction that i can't see clearly.... hope, soon, the end of it will come soon, and my destination be seen.... be it what i hope or not, i'll still be happy, that i'm for once very sure...
posted by luxy @ 4:02 PM
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