gong kia number one

Of Love or Madness....

I was talking to a friend who's getting married next month. She used to be someone i liked so much, that i believed that she is worth all the sorrow there ever is in the world. At that time that is... i managed to leave that part behind, after a few years. The gal that broke my heart into a million pieces. She said she never knew how much she meant to me, and i never knew what was on her mind. Only until recently then she knew how i felt back then. But, i'll never know how she felt or how she thought, many years ago, and till now.... its still the same story.

She's getting married, to a guy she don't love. She said she wants freedom in a relationship, and yet what i know is she wants commitment. she wants her man to be commited to her, and love her. and she wants stability, financially in my opinion. but.... my point is..... how can anyone marry someone who he/she don't love?! she told me.... these days, divorce rates are so high, and she don't discount the chance that hers will end up that way too. WHAT?! WHAT DID SHE JUST SAY?! even before she gets married, she's giving up already.... in this situation, what am i to say to her? she's getting married in 1 month's time, exactly. tell her 'hey! this man is not for you!' can i? i dunno how to say that.... even her best friend don't think its correct either. and yet, she made a decision that got us all so shocked. is it of love or of madness? i don't wanna judge anything, but as far as i feel, its pure madness.... finding a man who is committed to her, and love her, she did. but finding someone who do, and she returning that same love, she didn't. I can't believe it! i didn't believe it when she stuck with a boyfriend back then, just because she felt he is committed to him. now i still can't believe she is marrying someone who is committed to her, and yet she DON'T LOVE him.... or is marriage just an union by law, where you sign this deed in ROM, legally binding him to her? or choosing marriage as a confirmation, to keep this man who is committed to her by her side always? right choice, wrong choice.... who's to decide? hell no, its definitely not me to do it. all i did was to tell her 'i hope you find love in that 1 month's time' her reply was simple enough 'i will have to because i can't turn back the clock' is it remorse over the decision? hope not.... and i have gave up trying to understand her anymore.... failing miserably for the past 8 years....

Heaven saves us all.....

posted by luxy @ 1:53 AM