The Beginning of An End. An End That Brings Upon A Beginning
In the midst of the Exams,
The very last of Them.
I aint exactly a Fan,
So I don't really give a Damn.
Well... trying to be a little poetic, but seems like I failed miserably. Exams halfway through. Currently home now, waiting for my hair to dry up so can get down onto the keyboard and type some crap.
So far it haven't been a smooth ride for this exams. Pretty rough sailing this semester. Tough...
Hope it builds character...
Like real...
I've still got another three papers to go.
That's about it for the exams. Not exactly a fan of them, which I had indicated above. So don't talk about it. More talk, more exasperation, more irritation, more frustration, more breathless, then I cannot sleep well, then sleepy tomorrow, then cannot study well, not good for health, not good for mind.
Must rest well!
Everyone!
Back to the main topic. This exams, I pray to end at least with me passing all, will signify the end of my 1 + 6 + 4 + 2 + 4 = 17 years of studying life. The beginning of an end.
And this end is going to bring upon the working life thereafter. Nope... not going back for my M.Eng anymore. STM has offered me a job as a process engineer. And pen to paper already yesterday evening.
Pretty decent pay for a start. With shift allowance and OTs to look forward to in future. Good place to get the career going. But the shift is a little weird. Two weeks day, two weeks night. Wonder how the body is going to cope. Sure feels like going back to army all over again. No day no night.
But, I'm sure I can adapt. I always believe that as one of my strengths. As well as versatility, initiatives... and the list goes on. Hehheh... boaster in the house! My House! I can say whatever I want! Come burn it down if you have any grievances! I'm waiting... hehhehheh...
Of course must say my good points. Say my bad points meh? Crazy...
Tired liao...
Koonz............
War zone
This is war... with my buddies.
Mr Tang taken almost by surprise. Note the different rations we have. And of course, the trusty newspapers and its important recruit section on saturdays.
My equipments. Mr Clever, baby wipes to refresh a tiring fighter and a chocolate coated marshmellow pie for the hungry and weary.
Mysterious Shev!
The view from the top. Note the black spot on the right, it's a swallow. It was going to rain.
A clearer view... Its pretty beautiful isn't it?
Serious work in progress.
While luxy ponders how to get into a good sleeping position, soon after.
Pictures paint a thousand words... do I have to say anymore?
Its flooding!
Last saturday's recruit was a bang... STMicroelectronics is recruiting again! I heard they are expanding and building another fab, that's why they need so many people these days. It would be my dream start to my working life. It was mood dampening last weekend where there is not a single semicon work available. That's why I began searching for M.Eng. openings. Not bad, for now I've found two. Today I met one of the profs. Had a good talk with him for an hour. Seems like he is pretty keen to take me in as his student. I've known him since my IA days where he was my supervisor. Then I took one of his subjects last semester and this time round he is my FYP moderator.
If I am going to get the STM job, I would have to foresake this M.Eng. opportunity. If I don't, I will probably go for his M.Eng. Now what I am scared is STM can't get in, then M.Eng. school reject me. Then I really 'hambeen' liao...
Interesting talk we had just now. He told me the project is going to focus on derivation of basic equation for the new double gate stack of transistors. Must satisfy all the different aspects of I,V,Gm,Vth... blah blah blah. Then use MEDICI to simulate and verify the equation. Wait... do you guys know what the hell I am talking about? I've lost so many readers, will I scare you guys, whoever is left here, off too?
:-The most I talk to the wall... It's the best listener...
So all those technical issues, and the poisson equations and some MOS characteristics, I told him "Sir, that's A LOT!". He reassure me, that would not be two year's work, that means he is not expecting me to complete the research together with the team then can I graduate.
'phew......'
A bit more stuff, then he started asking me again if I am a local chap. I thought he was just confirming again because this scholarship is only open to locals and PRs. Then he started asking me about school registrations and army. And if the registration is similar for girls.
'huh?'
Then I remember his son is going to be enlisted soon. He is an immigrant so he didn't really know how the procedures go. Then we started talking about all these stuff like school and army, registration and education grant. Plus bond of local students. He was so happy to know we don't have bond, because he thought that MOE provides the grant so we must hang around a couple of years.
So he went 'phew......'
A bit more of the side track and we were back to talk about the scholarship. Then he started asking me about my honors standing. A scheme came up immediately in me. I told him 'Sir, If my FYP gets an A I should be safely on the way to a second upper. If B, might have some chance. But probably second lower...' Then I said 'Sir, I heard M.Eng they want second upper, so whether I can get this will depend very much on my FYP grade...'
So do you guys know what I was trying to do?
I was trying to...
KELONG!
Get it?
KELONG! LONG LIVE S-LEAGUE!
You guys must be thinking 'He gone kuku nuts already!'
Well... if you guys still don't get it, leave me a note. I'll explain with full illustrations. Probably write you a technical paper as well, then submit it to IEDM'05.
'What?! Simi?! Apa?!'
Nevermind for now... Just think about it as some mad fellow ranting away...
So that's about it. End of story for today.
'Huh?! Then what's flooding?' did I hear you say that with a tinge of confusion...
It's flooding with
Opportunities....
Good Day!
It goes round the world and back...
If I am negative in tone,
it probably is because I'm sleepy.
If I am sleepy,
it probably is because I'm tired
If I am tired,
it probably is because I have been studying,
If I have been studying,
it probably is because exams are close.
If the exams are close,
it probably is because the term is coming to an end.
If the term is coming to an end,
it probably is because that's how the academic calender dictates it.
If the academic calendar dictates it,
it probably is because it is the practice around the world.
If it is the practice around the world,
it probably is because of traditions.
If it is the tradition,
it probably is for students from the past.
If it is for the students of the past,
it proably applies for students of the present time.
If it is for the students of the present time,
it probably is the end of the term.
If it is the end of the term,
it probably mean the exams are close.
If it is close to the exams,
it probably mean many students are studying.
If it is the time to study,
it probably mean I am doing it too.
If it is the case that I am studying,
it probably mean I am tired.
If it is true that I am tired,
it probably mean I will be sleepy.
If it is always that I am sleepy,
it probably mean I will not be in an excellent mood.
If it is a bad mood I am in,
it probably mean I will sound negative.
If it is a negative tone,
it probably mean that you should ignore me.
If it is what you are going to do,
it probably mean I will be very quiet.
AND it means, stay away from me...
沉默的羔羊
沉默的羔羊当别人误解我的时候
我总是沈默
沈默对我来说其实是一种反驳
当世界遗忘我的时候
我一个人过
幸福对我来说其实是一种传说
当敌人越来越多
朋友都离开我
当爱情变成一种负担却无法解脱
我不是沈默的羔羊
我有话要讲
给我一点酒
让我有勇气
向你吐露我的悲伤
我不是沈默的羔羊
我也有梦想
当明天太阳升起
照在我的脸上
我一样能散发光芒
羔羊也会怒吼
沉默是一种力量
你是不是和我一样
在现实中学会坚强
