Tuesday, September 06, 2005

No more of melacholy shits...

No more melacholy shit for today...


Somehow today was kinda lucky in some sense. I decided to go back to company to 'donate blood' for the afternoon. Well if you guys don't understand what that means, it means I went back to work for free. I tell you, when people see you coming back and it's not your shift, the first question they ask you is 'You today come donate blood?'. And when your answer is 'Yalor...donate blood...', the reactions do vary but eventually are equally negative.

1) 'Wahlau... donate blood sia...'

2) 'You spoil market leh...'

3) 'You sure you not getting anything?'

4) 'Siao boh? Free? Not even TO?'

5) 'You stress me leh... work so hard...'

6) 'etc etc...'


I give an equally nonchanlant answer 'Well...once in a blue moon lah'... Luckily I came back work today. The night shift engineer called me at 5 plus today. Then he said he need some help from me. I asked what... ha... guess what, he wanted to ask me to cover him for tonight! That was when my mentor's words come into my mind. He said today to me 'Actually, sometimes donate blood got it's benefits'. So I asked him what they are. He just say 'Got one... got one... don't worry'. So in the day itself, it manifested immediately. And before the engineer can asked for help from counterpart, I told him we were going out together to celebrate his birthday... I don't know if we were lucky, or is it him being sway or something. But well, think he came back anyway.


Another thing is, I've heard there is another engineer coming in to replace the engineer I was talking about in the above paragraph. That's because he is leaving the fab to go over to device side. So it is a transfer of department. So we are getting new blood, fresh meat. It is pretty amazing, that I am only 3 months into my work, and I am about to become the second most senior engineer in my fab... Now that's fascinating huh? Previously one just resigned, one got transfered, now another got transfered. I think my fab and department just got the newest guys around. So get ready to see more screw ups coming up in my fab... haha... think he is coming over to be my counterpart soon enough. Today is his date to reply to the offer of the job. I wonder if he agreed.


So a raw estimate: if he accepts today, he probably will go for his medical checkup on friday. That takes one week. So if it passed and the company decided to draft him in, using a conservative estimate, he should join the company at the end of the company, say 29th. He will have his two weeks of orientation training first. That means he will come up at 14th Oct. Do two weeks of normal shift with the boss. That would be the end of the month. By then, Mr L would have left for device. Then SY would go over to cover his shift. Start to follow shift engineer for three weeks. By then, I think I would have to cover permanent night shift for at least around two months. Yah... that's right. His shift will be empty from the start of Nov, so Ang will probably be covering it for the day. Conservatively estimating, he starts to cover day shift by himself from 24th Nov, taking four weeks. Yah... basically I might just be doing night shift all the while for both Nov and Dec. Hmmm... wonder if that is a good thing. Especially for ramped up quarter... yikes...


Well... the good thing is I can look forward to a bigger paycheck for the two months. For wasting my health away... hahaha... not exactly actually. I always get myself a can of 'snake tongue' drink everytime I do night shift, to keep the fire down you know. And sometimes I like night shift, sometimes I don't. Similarly for day shift. So might as well do night shift, where I got time for myself and I can do somemore reports too. And not to exclude the long breaks outside too. hahaha...


That's about it for work for now. After that, we went to celebrate SY's birthday. First we went to coffee club at taka for dinner. We reached pretty late, think about 745pm or something like that. I was having my panges of hunger since 5pm... so eventually it developed into the famous gastric pain. I got the first bites in, and finished it real fast. But think it just stayed there and I kinda fizzied out for a while.


We didn't stay in coffee club for long. After the last bite was finished, we immediately asked for the bill. We got our butts off and moved over to swenssens down opposite the road. There was where all the fun started. Initially we were just having ice-creams for a start. But due to my pain in the stomach, I was kinda quiet for some time. But when Andrew started on his nonsense, I was laughing so hard I forgotten the pain. So basically we were just crapping and talking nonsense, especially talking about the show 'Dong Cheng Xi Jiu'. It's a classic comedy from 1993/4, can't really remember which one it was. We just laughed and laughed and laughed. I actually laughed till tears appeared in my eyes. It was that crappy...


When kh whipped out his camera, we were all psych up to take pictures. When the waiter came over, click...nothing. Empty batt... damn... kh switched batteries... empty batt again... So he whipped out more batteries. This time round it lasted at least through our excessive photo taking session in swenssens... And we also managed to capture SY's cake and our barbaric way of eating the cake. It was cut into 8 pieces, and each of us just poke our fork in and eat the slice. Uncorth, but definitely the best and most fun way to eat it.


We were just skipping around to take pictures. And I managed to get 2 1/2 pieces of ice cream cake... hahaha... I had two slices and 1/2 from ML. She just can't finish her food! But her slice i was holding on for so long. Anyway, eventually I still got it into my tummy. Even with all the nonsense that's happening to my gastric juices. Maybe somehow the icecream did neutralise some of the juices, I just aint feeling the pain at that time. Took crappy lots of pictures... think more than 40 for about half an hour while we are clicking away. Think the people there must be thinking we are bunch of overgrown kids... ha...


The funny part... SY singing his own birthday song. Classic moment cause we didn't want to sing the song. Ha... and he blew out his candles halfway through. Mich has to light the candles for him again. When he finished, Mich has to clear the candles for him. When it's all nice and danty, he struggled with the cake. Too hard it seems. When he finally finished, Mich just said she's going to start first. That's where we started to eat with 'the fork poked in and eat like a potong' method. Crazy moments in the eatery...


Next we proceeded to KBox. Then my gastric started working up again. Initially I had inhibitions of going in, cause I don't want to spoil the party mood if it gets too bad. Then Mich say the rest had went in and told me to at least stay a while. So I went in as well. My gastric juices are very cooperative... they begin to retreat again at that moment. That's where we started to go mad in the KTV. Of course, it took some time to warm up. I aint much of a singing freak so I didn't join in initially. It was kinda cool for me for the front part. Until I sang my favorite hokkien song... It was smoother than I usually sing at home... ha... then SY's spirit was infectious. So basically we went a bit crazy when we sang some songs that were full of energy and life.


No, I should say the hokkien songs are the best... hahaha... brought out the spirit in some of us, cause Veron and ML don't understand much hokkien. Anyway when they sing their malay songs and canto songs, we also don't understand. ha... heck la... as long as we were having fun. SY is really into singing... he was really enjoying through the night. Our little Jay Chow. Well you guys can go hunt him down if you guys want to accuse him of impersonating your favorite idol. But he sings with quite a lot of passion and skill at times. At times... you get what I mean...


So we just blasted the roof away until around 2am. Settled the bill and went our ways home. The trip back isn't the most memorable... and I promised no melo stuff today. So I'll end it on a happy note...


Happy Birthday SY!

Monday, September 05, 2005

Bits left after a burnt out flame...

Promise me you won't be unhappy... After what I have heard today, I have no idea how I am going to do that. Maybe I can, cause I won't be unhappy. I just won't be happy.

I've decided that there is a fairytale out there waiting for me, somewhere somehow. Someone told me before, that I just give up too easily. No patience, no tenacity, no persistence to find that winning touch, anymore...


Frankly I don't know.


I'm still fighting, rest assure that. There's nothing more that is worth fighting for than life's fairytales. Reality is made up of dreams. Dreams of yesterdays, years that's passed and sometimes never remembered.


Only when you have dreams, do you excel, succeed and conquer...


But now here I am, fighting a war that has no end, until the day the fairytale dies. Dying is inconsequantial... everything has an end. But believe me, I would do my utmost to make it a perfect ending. You get shot, you survive, then you better pick up a rifle and ammo, go into the big bad world, guns blazing again.


If not you just gonna end up the hospital again, nursing some wounds that will never heal...


Compassion is a virtue... and poison too. I've heard the same story over and over again. The show is on a rerun again. Once again the audience is sparse. There is only one person willing to watch it, alone once again. Once again I see the same old story, before my eyes, running it's black magic again.


I've got the save myself from this eternity...


Is it just me again, or am I in a place where everyone is faceless and seeing the same thing. The world is big enough for two in a same situation... One has two choices. One, stand up and walk out the theatre, and never finding out how the ending goes. Someday one might still find oneself in the same theatre watching the same movie again. Two, walk up to the movie projector, and switch it off. Take out the source and snap it into two. Throw it into the bin and out the theatre. And take a deep breath... the air will be fresher.


Life's choices...

One make them by themselves...


You have your decision to make. I'll stand by it and respect it. But for now, it will always be something like a fairytale to me...

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Significance...

Msg 1:

Then let your imaginative mind convince your reality mind. =)

Msg 2:

You promise not to be unhappy